Happy New Years?

I'm psyched that it's finally New Years Eve, but I've been thinking about what I have to show for this year. It was a pretty good year overall, but it was definitely full of it's hardships.

I've had a few downfalls this year that I want to fix/never do again, but some I don't know if I can fully control. I found that my biggest problem and biggest reason for being down in mood at all this year was my take on girls. There were a few this year that I liked, but was not able to gain something more than friendship with any of them. Regardless, I am still grateful for that. Two girls stick out in my mind right now.


First is Whitney. She is one of the most amazing girls I have ever met. I fell for her over the phone ...long distance. I tried and tried to push it away. After being hurt a few times from it I was able to let go of it...until a few days ago. She found some time and the ability to come see me. I don't even know how to explain how I felt being around her. Everything seemed right. Everything about her was amazing to me. Again I find myself longing for something more, knowing that the chances of her going along with that are slim to none. She said she had a great time and it looked like she had a good time, but all of her thoughts and feelings I will never know. What she thinks about me, what she wants to happen...all up in the air. One thing is for sure...I am damn glad I stuck though the hard times. Even though it was only a couple days with her, it was unforgettable. There's nothing else I would've rather done. I'm not going to pressure her and I'm not going to ask for more. If it is ever going to happen, I want to know that it's true and that it's something she really wants. So if it happens, it is her doing.

I also found myself falling for Kim. The end of last school term I was going on numerous dates with her and had a great time. She's really fun to hang out with and very pretty. We've talked about a relationship and know that it probably isn't going to happen anytime soon if it does. She's not ready for one. I haven't got to talk to her as much lately as I would like to, but she promised me that she'll be there to greet me and hang out when I get back to Michigan on friday. I'm definitely looking forward to seeing her and hanging out again.

The reason I found myself down in mood from girls is because I find the girls that I like a lot, but what I feel never seems to be mutual. I fall for girls way too easy...probably for the longing of something close. I'm away from home the vast majority of the year and don't get to see my family. It's like I want someone to fill that gap when I'm gone...someone that I can love and be close to. Maybe I'll figure it out someday.

School had it's hardships and it's good times this year. January through March was awesome. I got initiated into the best fraternity in the world (Phi Gamma Delta), worked out and got myself looking better, spent a lot of time with my fraternity brothers having an awesome time (SC road trip, initiation, Delta week, etc) and I did well in my classes. April through June was also a good time. I was out in Iowa for my job with Polaris and one of my best friends Lee. I know I complain about Iowa a lot, but where we are in the summer is a huge tourist hot spot and there are a ton of fun things to go do around the lakes. The 4th of July weekend was definitely a good time too. Lee and I took a road trip to Buffalo, NY to hang out with Adam. We partied it up, went to Canada and Niagra falls, and went jet skiing on lake erie in PA. Following that was school term...July through September. That was my first full term in the fraternity house. The term wasn't quite as much fun simply because of the classes. I had a very bad professor for calc 3 and physics 2 is just hard as hell. Outside of those two classes, the term was pretty fun. Then work term came around from October-mid December. It was an alright time. The two highlights of that time were halloween and our beerpong table...and getting busted by the cops and going to the Sage Francis concert in Minneapolis. Both were a ton of fun. Since I've been home, I've posted everything I've done here in the last few posts...all of which has been a good time.

I know I am definitely looking forward to the new year and this next school term. It should be a lot of fun in the fraternity. I hope this next year things go better for me and the girl situation.

My new years resolutions: Take the rest of this weight off (not much more to go), make dean's list both terms, and to not fall for girls so easily. They're going to be difficult, but I'm sure I can do them.

What an Amazing Week

I couldn't have asked for a better week. First thing was the date with Ashley. I had a great time going out with her. We went to the Whinery (really nice restaurant in GJ) for dinner and had a nice talk there. Following that we cruised on over to the movie theatre to see King Kong, not knowing until just before we went that it was 3 1/2 hours. We decided to go for it. It actually turned out to be a pretty good movie. We didn't get out of it until around 11 or so. We were both kinda tired so I took her home. We're going to go out again and play pool and such. It should be a good time. She's a really pretty and nice girl.

The next suprise was amazing. Whitney called me and let me know that she was going to come visit for a few days if I didn't have anything going on. She got in Wednesday night. We sat and talked for a bit then decided we wanted to go bowling. We got to the bowling alley only to find out that there was a 45 minute wait. Instead of waiting we went and rented The Exorcism of Emily Rose. I hate horror movies too, but she insisted. We watched that then went to bed. Yesterday morning we got up decently early and drove to Glenwood Springs to go to the caverns and the lodge. It was a great time and I got some good pictures. Following that we headed back to Grand Junction and went to the mall to hang out and do a bit of shopping. We both bought a few things then headed home for a homemade steak and shrimp dinner. It was great. After dinner my parents, sister, grandma, whitney, and I played a game of cards. I ended up getting a call from some friends to go see if I wanted to come see the producers with them. Whitney and I both were wanting to see it so we headed out to the theater. It was a great movie...very funny. We didn't want to go to bed when we got back, even though it was almost 1, so we decided to put on a movie till we fell asleep. This morning was hard. I knew she had to go and I didn't want her to leave. She's an amazing girl and a few days isn't enough to catch up on 12 years of not seeing her. I'm going to try as hard as I can to see her as much as I can.

As for everything else, it seems to be going pretty good. I don't have any plans for New Years yet, but I'm banking on something good coming up. Even though I've had a great time here I still can't wait to get back to Michigan to see all my friends and Kim. I miss her a lot and am looking forward to hanging out again.

Well, I think I'm heading out for the day. If anyone wants to hang out, hit me up!

Christmas!!

Well being home has been great. I've got to see a lot of old friends and even meet some new people. I've been pretty busy since I've been back. A lot of hanging out with family too. The highlights of being home so far have got to be (in no particular order)

1. Going to lunch with Heather.
It was amazing to get to see her. I missed her a ton. We went out and got sushi and talked for a few hours. It was great. I couldn't have asked for a better day.

2. Hanging out with debate friends.
Got to hang out for a night with a bunch of my debate friends. Playing xbox, debating affirmative action, playing ps2, eating pizza and such, etc. It was nice to see all of them.

3. Hanging out with family.
I've got to see a bunch of family and have got to do a lot of fun things with them. I saw most of them on Christmas, which I'll go into a bit later.

4. Hang out with Ashley
So Mike (a friend of my parents) has two daughters which I've known since I was really little. Well I haven't seen one of them since we were 10 or so. Well she decided to come along with her dad to lunch the other day and we both were a bit attracted to each other. Every time Mike has come over to hang out with my parents, she came along. So tomorrow we decided we wanted to go out and do something fun...just us two, so we're going to go get a bite to eat, see a movie, and go play some pool. It should be a good night. I'm definitely looking forward to it.

5. Hang out with JJ
We've been friends since we were really young, but didn't hang out much in high school. Well this break we started hanging out a bit. It's nice to see him and look back on old times and such. We still have to get out there and do something fun before I go.

6. Christmas
Christmas was great this year. I got to watch my sister open her gazillion presents and have a good time. I also got some good stuff: new cordless keyboard, new bottle of my armani cologne (acqua di gio), sirius satellite radio, handheld cb radio (for the long road trips), fraternity polo and a new beard trimmer. I'd say I made out pretty good this Christmas. It was awesome to get to see a bunch of my cousins, aunts, and such. It turned out really well.

As for the rest of my break, I still have some things I'd like to do. I want to travel up towards the vail/snowmass area and get some good pictures...maybe stop and see Emily and Mark while I'm up there. I also want to hang out with some more of my friends such as the delta girls (sarah, emily, and tara), Becca, JJ and Mike, Justin, and hopefully Whitney (if she can make it into town.) I still have a week and a half or so, so hopefully I can see all of them.

All you friends back in Michigan that are reading this, I'll be back soon. I'll be back in flint the afternoon of the 6th to move into the fraternity house.

I know it's a little late, but I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas. I'll try to update again before the new year and let everyone know how the date and everything else goes. I'll also post some pictures from the break. I got some good ones of family and such!

If you made it this far, you deserve to sign my guest book...the link is over to the right. In the mean time, if you're done on here, you can check out my other webpages over under the links menu on the right.

Give me a call if you're in Junction or close and want to hang out!

Home at last!

Well the last couple days have been pretty tiring. Lee and I took off after work on Friday and drove to Rockford, IL. It was pretty much smooth sailing the whole way until about 30 miles from Rockford. We hit some traffic jam in them middle of nowhere...not sure what the deal was, but there were cops, firetrucks, and a few semis off the shoulder of the road. We did finally make it in around 11:30. I pretty much just crashed after that.

The next morning I got up around 7:30 or so, jumped in my car, and drove through the heart of chicago on my way to Tecumseh. I was suprised at how smooth the traffic was. I ended up getting in around one or so. It was really nice to see Jeremiah and Amanda. I just hung out with them for the night then crashed around 9 or so...I had to get up early today.

So this morning I woke up around 5:30 or so and go dressed and such. Jeremiah took me to the airport (about an hour away). After that it was just flying back. Both flights were good, although my layover was so short in Denver that my bag didn't make it all the way with me. Still waiting on that as I write.

Anywho, now that I'm home I have some things to do. I have a bunch of people to see and hang out with, on top of a lot of Christmas shopping to do (no place to do it where I was at in Iowa.) It should be a nice stay here...Hanging out with old friends like JJ and Mike. I might get to see Whitney this time around. Heather Cover (don't know her new last name) is going to be in town. I can't wait to see her...it's been way too long. I'll hopefully get to see Becca, too. Along with all of them I have all my other good debate buddies to hang out with. Family too of course.

For those of you back in Iowa, I'm gonna miss you. Keep in touch and have a Merry Christmas and an awesome new year.

And those of you in Michigan (Kim especially), I can't wait to get back up there to see you all! I hope all of you have awesome holidays and all that good stuff. See ya soon!

About my last post

So apparently someone got offended by my last post. They left me this comment, "That's really sad that you'd compare something wonderful to a BEER! But, you're a man!"

Now let me clarify some things here. I did not post that actually believing in it. I don't even like most beer. I just found this posted on a friend's facebook wall and found it humorous. Nothing wrong with posting a joke from time to time. So whoever left that comment, just know that IT WAS A JOKE!

On another note, I'm just bored here sitting at work. It's my last day and there's not a whole lot I can do. I have a meeting with the plant manager later on, but other than that I pretty much just have to clean my desk up and wrap up the ends on a few projects. I'm going to be on the road to Chicago around 4:00 central time. Feel free to call me or text me. Just know that I probably won't text you back if I'm driving...that is a hazard.

Have a good Friday!

Beer vs. Vagina

1.Beer is always wet. Vagina needs a little work.
One point to BEER

2.Warm beer tastes awful.
One point to VAGINA

3.A really cold beer is satisfying.
One point to BEER

4.If after taking a swig of your favourite beer you find a hair
between your teeth, you may vomit.
One point to VAGINA

5. If you get home reeking of beer your wife may get mad, make a
scene, kick you out, etc. If you get home reeking of vagina your wife
may get mad, kick you out, even leave you. There's definitely a point
to be had here, depending on your point of view and personal
circumstances. I'll just call it a DRAW for the time being.

6. Ten beers in one night and you can't drive home. Ten vaginas in
one night and you don't want to drive anywhere. One point to VAGINA

7. If you have a lot of beer in a public place, your reputation may
suffer. If you eat any vagina in public, you become a legend.
One point to VAGINA

8. If a cop stops you and you smell of beer you may get arrested. If
you smell of vagina he may buy you a beer. One point to VAGINA

9. You normally don't find old beer.
One point to BEER

10. Too much beer and you'll think you see flying saucers. Too much
vagina and you'll think you've seen God. One point to VAGINA

11. Ripping off a beer bottle label is boring. Ripping off panties is
fun. One point to VAGINA

12. In most countries there's a tax on beer.
One point to VAGINA

13. If you have another beer the first one never gets pissed off.
One point to BEER

14. You can always be sure if you're the first one to open a bottle or a can.
One point to BEER

15. If you shake beer it'll get all agitated but eventually it
settles down. One point to BEER

16. With beer you always have choice: clear, dark,
pilsner,ale,lager,etc One point to BEER

17. You always know how much beer is going to cost One point to BEER

18. Beer doesn't have a mother
One point to BEER

19. Beer never expects to be hugged for half an hour after you
drink it
One point to BEER

FINAL SCORE: BEER: 10 VAGINA: 8

That's it! The matter is settled, the clear winner is: BEER

PS: If you are a woman and at this point feel angry, degraded or
discriminated against, just remember that Beer would experience none of those feelings, let alone express them, an extra point for BEER

1 Day Left

Well after two days of packing up and getting my car loaded I'm definitely ready to get out of here. Tonight is my last night in Iowa...thank God. I'm gonna get up early in the morning, put the rest of my stuff in my car, go to work, then leave with Lee afterwards. We're planning on staying the night at a friends house outside of Chicago. It should be a good time. I don't know if I'll be able to update over the next couple of days, but I'll definitely try. For those of you that know me, give me a call tomorrow after 4 central time. I'd be happy to talk to you on my way to Chicago.

About you...

This seemed pretty accurate for me. I don't like being alone and I wouldn't consider myself emotionally unpredictable or temperamental, so it was wrong on that. Other than that it was pretty much right on target. For reference, I was born in July.


JANUARY:
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.Is horny most of the time.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. AND ALWAYS HORNY!!!!
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
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MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Totally BADASS. Best person you'll ever meet!
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JUNE:
You've got the best personality (bar none) and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You are probably a massive Burzum fan, and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection (that is better than anybody elses from any other month). YOu have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor yourself - hell, youve got the looks for it!!! You are definitely more metal than anyone born in February (especially Simon from Seventh Cross).
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. HOT. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. ~Best sex partner anyone could ask for ! hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to a special person. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. sexy but has brains.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
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NOVEMBER:
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Very skilled at making love. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Messy, playful, secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
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DECEMBER:
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. SEXY. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Changing. Fearless

Bored at Work

I really don't have much new stuff to talk about, but oh well. So lately I've been talking to Whitney a bit. Things are great...I think they're going to work out just the way they should now. She left Eric for a guy that she works with that she says treats her extremely well and is good to her. This is all I ever wanted for her and it's what she got. I'm happy for her. The downside is that I guess he's leaving to a different school up in Maine in not too long. Hopefully they work something out. I like seeing her happy.

I have no idea what's going on with Kim lately. I never hear from her anymore. Last time we talked she said she's really busy, so I figured I'd let her call me when she's not busy rather than interupting whatever she has going on.

In awesome news, I'm almost out of this winter wasteland called Iowa. I got a lot of my stuff packed up and am heading out friday after work.

I can't wait to get home and spend time with family and friends...for a lot longer this time!!

So this last weekend my roommates and I went to go see Aeon Flux. I thought it was a pretty good movie. It had some good actions scenes and had a pretty original plot as far as I know. Charlize Theron isn't too bad on the eyes either.

I discovered some pretty good music...well not really discovered it, but finally listened to it. Jack Johnson has some good stuff. It's calming and just overall a good experience. I recommend it.

Anywho, I better get back to work. In the mean time I would appreciate it if you sign my guestbook. I've noticed a few more in there...thanks! Have a good Tuesday!!

Almost Done

Well work term is coming to a close. Next friday is my last day here. It's going to be really nice to be home for 3 weeks. I have a bunch of friends to see and a bunch to do with the family. Until that time I'm just going to bum around my last week and a few days. Work is going slow and pretty boring. They suck when it comes to helping with housing. Other than that it has been an alright term.

This last weekend was pretty good...went to go Christmas shopping and ended up buying a bunch of stuff for myself and figuring out exactly what I want to get family and friends (which would be easier to buy when I'm home.)

As for girls, the situation seems to be alright. I like Kim a lot, but we've talked a few times and she has made it pretty clear that a relationship isn't going to happen anytime soon. She did inform me on sunday that there is a guy that she found out likes her and now she is feeling the same towards him. She told me that she doesn't want a relationship, but that she can't keep pushing the guys away. She said she doesn't know if anything will happen with him at this point, but if he's not ok with us two hanging out just like we did before then he's gone. Hopefully she sticks to that! I like her too much to lose the friendship.

On another note, I heard from Whitney today...she said she'd call. I didn't get a call, but it was still nice to hear from her. We aren't bitter towards each other, but it does seem like there is quite the gap there now. I still wish that things would be like they were, but I don't see that happening. At any rate, I'm pretty much over things and don't worry about it too much. She still crosses my mind pretty often though. I wonder what she's feeling towards all of this.

Today is kind of a sad day in other news...tonight was the last episode of Southpark till next season. I would say that this is one of my favorite seasons though...it was freaking hilarious.

Anyhow, I should probably get to bed...have to get up for work early...dangit.

Thanks everyone that has signed my guestbook. I urge the rest of you to follow their lead. I just am curious about who all is reading this. I get a decent amount of hits for a personal blog, and I'm just wondering who they all are. Thanks.

Good ole' Iowa

I did finally make it back to iowa...after 3 days in different aiports. When Tuesday rolled around I had to get on a plane to chicago then make a connection there to sioux falls. Well, as my luck would have it, my flight to Chicago got delayed by about 3 or so hours due to mechanical and hydraulic problems on the plane. I ended up missing my flight out o sioux falls, so had to stay the night in the chicago airport...it sucks. Wednesday morning I was able to catch a flight to sioux falls. I finally made it in around 10:30. The place looked like Siberia...flat, cold, snow covered, and windy. I made the drive back to spirit lake and decided to stop into work to see what I should do about my missed days. They ended up working me the rest of the day.

Today is going well...about 6" or so of snow on the ground and work is keeping me busy. No really big plans today. I think Ashley is coming over to hang out for a while after work. It should be a good time.

As for girls in general...I think I'm going to try to stay away from any sort of committment or anything close for a while. Seems like every time I do, I end up getting hurt or wasting a ton of money. It's a distraction anyways. I do the romantic stuff only to find out that they only like me as a friends, or I try to just be a friend, but that seems too hard for them too. So, as of now, I am no longer going to initiate anything with any girls except old friends...and that would just be to hang out when I get home. No more trying to get numbers or anything like that. If a girl finds me and likes me for what they see, then I might take a chance, but a few things have to be present. I want a girl that has an intellect that "threatens" my own...one that stands on the same level or higher. I want someone that I'm able to have intelligent conversations with, not just some conversation on what happened in the last OC episode. She has to be open minded...dead deal if that's not there. Honesty is also a must...I want a girl that's honest with herself as well as me and others. Lying gets people nowhere fast. Those are my big things...past that, it's up in the air.

In other news, you should definitely check out southpark...the new one last night was awesome. I highly recommend it.

and PLEASE sign my guestbook